Trying

I try to be
I try to feel
I try to open my soul
I try to close the right doors
I try to wonder what I would be
I try to suffer less
I try to use more
I try to learn from others
I try to explain
I try to teach some of my wisdom
I try to have some knowledge
I try to have some thoughts about life
I try to praise friendship
I try to survive in the world
I try to breathe slowly
I try to eat nutritious food
I try to care about others
I try to take care of helpless
I try to achieve my goals
I try to find goals
I try not to faint
I try to smile to other people
I try to socialize
I try to be myself

When will I achieve all this?